“I have a lot to say about you, but the truth is I could never leave you, not even after all that you’ve done,” I said. But now, at the end, it doesn’t really matter because we broke our promises, we lost it…. the most precious thing… forever…
I think it’s somewhere in the jungle of life, hidden in the deepest of seas, highest of trees, and all of our biggest fears…
Of course, We will always have some part of it all with us, tattooed on our hearts, if we’ll be capable of remembering the notes of our song… Because, truly, I don’t have a name for it… this … anymore.
The memories kill us slowly…. And it is no secret that forgetting is easy, but, darling, since when do you search for the easy way out? When was it, that you stopped caring? Why did I ever have to let you down?
We have… had something different… that strange connection, which made even the stupidest of things look surprisingly normal..All because – you were there by my side.
I love… loved the way, how we could talk about anything and everything,
and always keep it the way it should be… between us.. between to sisterish sould… or did we?
I was confused… and I still am about how could you make me feel so much better even when I was trapped in all of my worst nightmares, when even waking up was so much work.
I loved…. no, I still LOVE you… and my heart will never let you go…. I’ve locked you in…. forever and you’ll always be there, but I will never tell you that, I will never spell it out for you, because we lost it all to the fire of our passion, love and arrogance.
I still remember those days, my friend…. when I could just smile and say:
I don’t know why trees changes in the fall, but I know I had the best day with you, today.
Please don’t forget all the things we’ve done together, all the laughs we’ve shared, and all the memories we made. I miss you, and I always will.
And saying those things, I DIDN’T EVEN FUCKING MEAN, were the BIGGEST mistake of my life… Funny, if you look at it this way, eh?