No longer will I be the girl that lives for assholes, no longer will I be the person to be lied to and manipulated.

Did I tell you already that I’m no longer am going to complain about people?  yeah, well. I realized that my life is what I make it and no one can ruin it for me. I have to stop being so polite, I have to do what I want to do instead of pleasing others. I will not wait for someone to invite me somewhere, I am going to invite others, because I want to keep the friendships that are important to me…. Screw people who are there to be haters or backstabbing bitches, that doesn’t affect me anymore. This is my crazy year, and the first crazy thing I am going to do is that I will let go all the people that provide negativity in my world. Then I am going to talk to the people I want not worrying about what at could do to my reputation. I am sick and tired of complaining, I will do something about it instead. This is a new, happier me. You may say I am egoistic, but after all this is my life and it is all about me. It doesn’t mean I am not going to help people anymore! No, I will, but I will also demand things that make me happy. Life is too short to worry about all the people who are not there for you too, people who use you. Look around you, life is beautiful, no matter how tough the road is, in the end it will always be worth it, if you enjoy life and control it yourself. I have to repeat myself again – LOVE YOURSELF, CAUSE YOU ARE AMAZING, MY DARLING! :))))


The issues of educational system in Latvia.

An owl represents knowledge. It is often used as the symbols of universities and high rank schools. It’s probably cause owl in many occasions remind us of people, this myth begun more than 2 thousand years ago. Nowadays owls are also an important part of lives of the students, unfortunately because of the nightlife. I’m not sure about the situation in other countries, but in Latvia, it is clearly visible that the education level decreases every year. Kids are not interested in learning as much as they are interested in alcohol, cigarettes and partying.

I must say that government is partially to blame for this situation. Government should provide good environment in schools, but instead it provides poor quality education, when only few schools in whole country are able to raise a generation of smart, educated and intelligent young people. I think we should make drastic changes in the dominant system of education. The educational goals in Latvia are providing the perfect electorate, which is basically preparing people who are educated, but not interested in the processes around them, not intelligent and highly prepared for buying even the cheapest propaganda provided by the government.

Also what should be a concern of the government are the outdated learning methods, which haven’t changed much since the Soviet times in Latvia, which ended in 1991. The Ministry of Education approve of amendments of several acts, but they all are just to chase after the European system. Unfortunately for the wrong reasons. Instead of taking care of the young generation, they are more interested in receiving EU funds to quickly put it in their pockets.

When interacting with my peers from different schools, I am frightened. Their view on the World around them is completely deformed, wrong and shallow. Most of them anyways. They believe that: “studying is lame”. Many decide that it is more useful to drink alcohol instead of attending school. Our system of Education supports the grading system performed in the range of 1 to 10. Students of my age are proud of failing 3 or 4 subjects, and barely passing all the rest. But bragging about how much they need to drink to get drunk is in style.

Also over the last few years more than 300 000 people have left Latvia, of  which most is the intelligence of Latvian society. Also too much resources are spent on financial aids for students, who after finishing higher education school, travel overseas to earn more money. I think government should decrease the financial aid, because there is no logical reason for financially supporting people who later support the economics of an another country.

It is a well known fact that Latvia has been strongly affected by the Economical crisis and is struggling ever since 2008. But neither current government nor the next generation will be able or even interested to improve the economic situation, because of the high rate of bribery and corruption, accompanied with poor education. Currently all moves of the government are expedient and serving the interest of oligarchy in Latvia.

The actual concern should be improving the system of education. What does the improvement entail? Firstly, the development of discipline in schools. Then a renovation of learning methods that are used. Also a complete development in the dominant system in universities, a renovation of information sources, practical use of  knowledge instead of just teaching theoretical part of the subjects learned.

A complete transformation of the financial aid in Latvia. It should cover the costs of adolescents that come from the low-income level of society. I would suggest include laws which could include demanding obligated years of working in Latvia after graduating with  financial support from the Latvian government.

More serious punishments for violation of the school rules are required. Invent a motivating wage system for teachers, that may be influenced by the results shown by the students of the particular teacher.

In this article I mentioned only a few of the concerns of the system of Education in Latvia, there are many more because as much as I hate to say this – the educational system of my homeland is under every requirement. And I know if no action will be taken now, the situation will only get worse and before we even know it we may again be overtaken by Russia or other country.

10 movies that you will remember always

This is the second post in my series of the 10’s. It’s the list of movies I personally and my friends can’t forget even after years after watching it.


10. Titanic.

Of course, Titanic. It is a movie everyone has seen. Some say it’s beautiful, some say it’s banal, some love it and some hate, but everyone knows what it’s about and everyone knows the story.


9. Slumdog millionare.

Movie that uses the famous game “Who wants to be a millionare”. Even though it’s about a tv game, it is so much more than that. It tells about the hard youth of and indian guy who grew up in a slumdog village and went through a lot just to stay alive and fight for the one he loved. Unforgettable.


8. The Bodyguard.

The extremely famous movie with Whitney Houston in the main role. The movie where one of the greatest love sons of all time was born “I will always love you”. Movie that is about love without expectations, giving up your love to help your beloved one. Breathtaking and heartbreaking story that can’t leave you half-hearted.


7. Forrest Gump

Who hasn’t seen Forrest Gump? It is one of the must-see movies, because the quotations are used everywhere. “Run Forest, run.” “My momma always said, “Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.””. Who hasn’t heard these quotes? That’s why Forrest Gump will never be forgotten.


6.  The Silence of The Lambs.

A psychological movie that is completely sick and completely genius. Amazing effect.


5. Remember me.

I know, I know. Robert Pattinson. I have never been a fan of his, but the moment I saw this movie, he convinced me that he is a good actor after all. It appears that he can be more than the poorly played Edward Cullen. The story is amazing. It is about every day life in a complicated relationship families, how their worlds collide. The moment you get into the story, you are feeling the emotions the movie gives you, there is a dramatic turn that completely blows you away. I have seen this movie several times, yes, that is how much I loved it, during the first watching time I was crying for an hour after the movie ended, on the second and third time I was crying even more. I personally think that this movie is genius just because of the unexpected twist after the resolve.


4. Cruel Intentions

The movie that is sarcastic, ironic, funny and sad at the same time. The characters are bright and the family is very extravagant. It is the kind of movie you can try to relate to and just sit back and enjoy, but at the same time shed a tear at the end of the movie.


3. A walk to remember/ Keith

These movies share the 3rd place cause the stories are very similar and both heartbreaking. These are the kind of movies that will make you think of what you have instead of what you lack, they will make you appreciate your life, health and situation for at least a little while. But the movie is stuck in your memory.


2. Dumb and Dumber

Many people think this movie is genius and it becomes their favorite movie, I personally think it is a dumb, pointless and brainwashing crap that is as dumb as the people displayed in it. But I remember it. So do the people who love it. You can hate it, but it will stay in your mind.


1. Black Swan

After watching this movie you can experience a variety of different emotions : disbelief, disgust, confusion or even paranoia, but it will definitely be remembered. The unusual story summed with the amazing work of the producers is completely out of this World. It may take days to suck all the information in, but in the end it will be really sharp in your memory, no matter if you liked it or not.



I’d lie if I told you I’m happy

I’d like to state myself as a confident enough person. But not today. Today everything about me seems wrong. The way my hair looks, the way clothes look on me, the way I am seems just wrong. I am also experiencing the “feeling really fat” phase. I’m working out 3-4hours a day to get my ass fit and I still feel so obese, which I am not, I am little overweight but it’s not that big of a deal….except it is. I hate my breast which are oversize, I hate my face which is so round, I hate hands which have the love wings, I hate my waist which is so jiggly and big. I just can’t seem to find a thing I like about myself. I really can’t. On these days I better stay alone, not talk to people, I don’t like throwing my problems and negativity on others backs, that’s why I am alone. I am just eating myself alive for every bite I had today – why did I eat so much? Why do I weigh more now than I did in the morning? Why did I drink the natural juice? Why? Why? Why?

I hate fat people cause I am one of them, I just can’t feel good about myself until I am finally thin. I don’t need to be average. I need to be thin. I need to. I don’t know what else should I do cause I don’t want to end up in a hospital because of overworking my body and organism. It’s now the 7th of January, and this summer I finally want to wear a bikini, to do that I need to loose freaking 20pounds. How do I find enough motivation to stay strong at all times? How do I find enough strength to keep working out even when not seeing any results? When do I find time for myself if I’m out from 7am – 9pm? When? Why? How?

If I had just one wish, it’d be the perfect figure, because right now I hate everything about mine. Everything. I just can’t go out with anyone. How can I expect anybody to love me if I don’t love myself? I’ve been asked out, but I just don’t feel comfortable meeting anyone. I don’t feel comfortable going anywhere. I feel the fat on me, I just feel it, it becomes heavier by the minute. It just eats me from inside.


So during the holiday season I had become lazy – didn’t exercise, ate too much too often too unhealthy. Then I had my new years resolution – Lose everything this time. So for 4 days, ever since 2nd of January, been exercising intensively and eating less and drinking water more again. I found my motivation, a picture of me as a fat kid, from way back in the beginning of 2009, so the picture makes me laugh but it still motivates me. Amazing. Also motivating is the fact that when I show it to somebody, no one believes it’s even me. So anyways, tonight I decided to exercise for 2 hours straight – I did hula hooping, I did sit-ups, I did groove dancing (fitness mode) and so on. I feel so revived now. All I can feel is energy going through me – incredible feeling. I hope that this feeling helps me to motivate me for further progress. I’m worried about how will I find time for this after holidays end, but that is already another story.  But I just wanted to share this incredible feeling with you. And of course, I’ll keep you posted on the progress. 🙂

10 simple ways how to brighten a bad day

Had a bad day? Can’t decide how, but you know you want to make it better? Here are 10 simple ways that are proven to brighten it up.

10. Watch a sad movie.

It’s in human nature to feel better after seeing somebody else is feeling worse, but that is not the only reason why this is a working way to brighten your bad day. After crying your eyes out while watching a sad movie (a walk to remember, Keith, One Day, Cruel Intentions, Raise Your Voice, Remember me or some other) you feel refreshed and just better, relaxed enough to have a good night sleep and end your bad day.

9. Have a cup of hot chocolate and look through your friend and family albums.

A nice cup of hot chocolate always makes you feel cozy and good, but restoring old memories might be a really pleasant way how to forget about the bad stuff and remember some good instead.

8. Listen to heavy metal songs.

By listening to these songs you will literally shake out everything out of your head. If you get loose and just dance and shake yourself in the rhythm it’s even better.

7. Go online shopping.

I believe that you really don’t feel like going out to town for a shopping spree, but you might actually enjoy buying yourself something you’ve always wanted online. It may be a coffee cup, a beauty product or even a pizza, what’s important, they deliver it to your house – so you are happy with no effort.

6. Do a home-spa.

Just take time for yourself. Go and take a bubble-bath, enjoy a nice face mask or scrub your body. Anything that helps you relax is good.

5. Eat fruits and have some wine.

After a tough day in the office, what can be more relaxing than eating grapes, oranges or simply some apples and drinking a glass of wine or champagne. Celebrate Thursdays, Mondays and Shitdays for that matter. Make your life a celebration.

4. Exercise.

The thought  of a skinnier, healthier you is always motivating. And if you really put some effort in your exercise until you’re pumped out, you feel feel a deep relaxation afterwards, also a feeling of completion and you’ll just be proud of yourself. You could have a contrast or completely cold shower afterwards, that is also very relaxing.

3. Do your nails.

Just make yourself a royal manicure. Do nail-art, just try anything that you can think of or can find on youtube tutorials. Pretty nails always brighten a woman’s day.

2. Take a walk.

Take your i-pod and go for a walk. Looking around the usual places while having your headphones on will really trigger some thinking in your head, and that is really an amazing way to see the world brighter and more colorfully. Enjoy the simple, the usual, the casual.

1. Do a yoga routine followed by a deep meditation.

No, yoga is not a religion, yoga is loving yourself, self-respect, something you may be lacking after a bad day. Find some tutorials online and just go for it. I guarantee that doing yoga is a secure way to complete relaxation, calmness and happiness. It’s narcotic. It’s priceless.

What do you do to brighten a bad day?