The only person standing in your way most of the time is you.

10 hours away from my senior year of high-school, I am having a throwback at the last 11 years. A lot has happened, I have grown into an individual with its own beliefs. Just a week ago I was mad … Continue reading

“A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.”

For past few weeks or even months I’ve been telling myself I’m exhausted from all the things that I’ve been doing, only now I realize I’m exhausted from not doing enough. You may wonder how is it even possible, well it is. I’ve always considered myself an ambitious person, well but there is a necessity for a munition that equals the ambition. And apparently I’ve been trying to kill someone with an empty bullet. I had forgotten how much I need to keep moving forward, keep succeeding to be happy. I’ve lost my confidence and I put the blame on the wrong reasons. I know finally realize that I had forgotten to be the person I taught myself to be, I had forgotten who I am and was someone I was not instead.

There are a lot of ways to keep my life the way I want it, but in long term I know very well what I wantย  – Iย  want success. And I can’t gain that by sitting at Starbucks or chilling at Cinnabon with my friends. I don’t know how it started, I guess the same old story – being desperate to fit in, oh well, fuck that. I’m the only one responsible for my life yesterday, today and tomorrow. And I am the one who needs to take action to complete my needs and wants.

Of course I can’t deny that I have changed due to recent events in my life, but I can’t let myself to fall to the shallow life of people who only care about today…. I don’t think you should be focusing on future all the time, but how does calling procrastination cool makes you cool? How does not studying make you cool? And I somehow started believing it is. And so what if it is ? I’m not going for ‘cool’, I’m going for “success” .

Yes, I like to party but at the same time I like to work hard and see the results of my work. But I’ve let myself drop to the level where nobody will ever trust me anything important in this company. ISN’T IT ALL I NEVER WANTED TO HAPPEN? WHAT HAVE I DONE? From this day on I’ll party hard but work even harder. Cause for those who do not have workdays, they don’t have Sundays either. I hope you get where I’m coming from.

I don’t know why every time I seem to have found my way, I always lose it, but I always do. And that is the main thing I have to change in my attitude… in my actions.

See a little while ago I found the most motivating video I had ever seen, I felt guilty for going to sleep and not doing more… well…. as usual, it was 3 days of hard work and then I slipped again… Why? I don’t know. But if I continue this way, I will be studying in University of Latvia instead of Brown or Pennsylvania or some other IVY league school.

If I don’t take action now, average is all I’m ever going to be. And that is not enough. I’m not saying I’ll stop having fun, no, but I will earn the fun with hard, hard work. Not starting today or tomorrow or a week from now. But NOW. Right now. Now.

 

 

โ€œEvery accomplishment starts with the decision to try.โ€

Hey, everyone. I know I haven’t posted anything for a while now, but I just needed to clear my head… I have so much to say… So this post consists of 2 parts, in part 1 I talk about what’s happening in my life, about my dreams, and my goals etc. but part 2 is philosophical – as usual – about changes [this time I suggest them]… so if you don’t care about my life and what’s on my mind, you might as well skip part 1. ๐Ÿ™‚

[part 1]

So remember my post “impatience” ? Well, everything worked out for me. So I am an example how everything and anything that seems impossible can easily become your reality, it just depends on how determined you are…I was doing everything I can to achieve this….and now all the crazy and unreachable dreams of mine are a step or two closer…in a very reachable way… So I know what I have to do now…and what I’m going to do now… I’ve never been more sure… Let me to introduce you to my new lifestyle

First of all after I reach one goal, I will chose and go for another, because that way I keep my life full of challenges…and I keep on developing myself..Now that I’ve reached this, I have time until september to lose 16lbs(8kg), and I can do it, I know it, I will run 1,8miles (3km) every day, plus I will eat more healthy. (btw check out this diet plan – it is TOTALLY WORKING, I swear – DUKAN DIETย ) you don’t have to pay the money though, I can email you a free ebook of the diet plan if you need. ๐Ÿ™‚ just post below your e-mail, and I’ll send it to you within 24 hours. ๐Ÿ™‚

Secondly, starting with june 10th I will work on becoming more organized, I’ll never leave anything to the last moment..Next year I’m going to be a straight-A-student , plus I’ll learn Spanish.

At last, but not least – as soon as I finish my current goal plan (what I’ve mentioned above) ” ready for the IB” – I will set the next goal…and with every step I go – I will get closer to feeling good about myself, my abilities, my achievements and success… I will be the person I’ve always wanted to be – the best me.

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[part 2]

This time I’m not here to talk about self-acceptance or self-belief, no, I’m here to talk about fulfilling yourself.. We try to tell everyone that you are happy the way you are, you even try to convince yourself…Then in the “rainy” days, you realize that you’re unhappy, you don’t feel as beautiful as you claim to be… But what we never realize is that those “rainy” days are gifts from above… those are the times you should finally realize- that you need to change something… It’s hard to change your little habits, little flaws… but change your whole life.. .your lifestyle… Dare to be someone else in order to find yourself.. Dress as if you were the only person in the world, sing as if you were the only person in the room, dance as if nobody was watching, laugh as if nobody was hurting you…Dare to be crazy and outgoing….Dare to be quiet and reserved…Dare to be self-confident and emphatic…Dare to be the opposite to the every day you… Look at the small things…think about the details…be a perfectionist…Cause every self-loving woman needs to feel as graceful as a movie star, as beautiful as a supermodel and as happy as person in love…because if you don’t love yourself, nobody will love you…You don’t need to loose those pounds because of someone else, no, you need to loose them if YOU yourself feel like it…you don’t need to be an athlete because someone else wants you to be one, you must want to be one yourself… that is the secret- DO WHAT YOU WAN’T TO DO, INSTEAD OF WHAT OTHERS THINK YOU HAVE TO DO! – that’s the secret for happiness.

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p.s. I have a question… Do you want me to post my progress on losing weight? I guarantee tips that are cheap ( the cost of food) , I’ll give the e-books for free etc. ๐Ÿ™‚ Do you think it’s necessary? Please answer below. ๐Ÿ™‚ย 

-Jenn*