I have found that if you love life, life will love you back.

I never quite understood why they say that opposites attract, because in my experience I’ve noticed a tendency of attitude to attract similar attitude, a person to attract a similar person. I think that these “opposites attract” cases are just … Continue reading

“we are new every day”

“Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)”

So often we hear people wishing they could start something over, redo a situation….relive a moment….replay a memory….remember the feelings…recall the words…Wishing upon a star, desperately wanting to see a better day, to live a new life…to be a different person…We would like to delete the bad from our past and make it better…we would like to save something that was meant to be saved…we want to take our words back and keep our heads high… we would want to be the ones to tell others: “Don’t worry, dear, it’ll be better”…how much would it mean to us to have one more chance to say something that has been left unsaid…to do something that has been left undone….believe someone who has been right all along…to listen to someone who has been left ignored…Have you never wondered where are people who used to be your everything now?Have you never wanted to go back to a time where you were different?..happier? Have you ever felt like everything is going wrong…and then have you wished you could just go back in time…. to make it better? Have you ever done something you had to regret… and you just wanted to make it so it had never happened?…so it was the way it was before? Have you ever said something to a person you love that made them leave you?…and then have you wished you could change they way the person felt about you now so you can move on?…live on? If you saw a shooting star would you wish your life to be different?..even little bit? If you know saw the person you hurt, would you say that you feel sorry for what had happened?…and then wish he forgave you?…If you know saw yourself long time ago, would you tell yourself to never do something that has had been done already in your life?…and then you changed? See the thing is, you don’t have to wish the time to go back or the words to be never said… you have to forget living for the past….live for today…and today what you are…. is….DAMN great…and that is all what matters…And when you know tomorrow YOU yourself you will be better…that is all that needs to be said…because… we are new every day.

Music is what feelings sound like. ~author unknown

Hey everyone, today I am giving you something different, I am going to post my song-list of the songs that are good for several occassions and download links. Here they are

HEARTBREAK SONGS

–     everybody hurts  (R.E.M.) – because this song really let’s you cry out everything that you’re feeling.

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=7910472&song=everybody+hurts

–     irreplacable (Beyonce) – that is the right attitude. (:

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=7647560&song=Irreplaceable

–     the way I loved you (Selena Gomez & the Scene)

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=8329635&song=The+Way+I+Loved+You

–     love hurts (Gram Parson)

http://beemp3.com/index.php?q=Gram+Parsons+love+hurts&st=all

–     fall to pieces (Velvet Revolver)

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=7040392&song=Fall+To+Pieces

LOVE SONGS

–     I don’t wanna miss a thing (Aerosmith) – one of my favourite songs of all time

 http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=4662220&song=I+don%60t+Wanna+Miss+A+Thing

–     your song (Elthon John) – makes me cry every time (:

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=8308471&song=Your+Song

–     everything I do (I do it for you) (Bryan Adams)

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=8413972&song=Everything+I+Do+%28I+Do+It+For+Y

–      I’ll be right here waiting (wherever you go, whatever you do ) (Bryan Adams)

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=7892639&song=I%27ll+Be+Right+Here+Waiting

–     come what may (Ewan McGregor & Nicole Kidman) – Moulin rouge ❤

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=3424393&song=Come+What+May

–      this love ( Maroon 5) – don’t you just looove maroon5? I know, I do. heh. (:

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=2500078&song=Maroon+5+-+This+Love

–     hero (Enrique Iglesias) – used to love that song too.

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=8407588&song=Hero

–     always (Blink 182) – amazing band, great song,

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=5163318&song=Always

LIFE SUCKS (music doesn’t)

–    boulevard of broken dreams (Green Day) – GD rocks..

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=7591346&song=Boulevard+Of+Broken+Dreams

–     black keys (Jonas Brothers) – not a fan of that kind of music, but that song is allright. :))

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=8246011&song=Jonas+Brothers+%27+Black+Keys+%27

–     untitled (Simple Plan)- this song is just priceless

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=6282883&song=untitled

–     leave out all the rest (Linkin Park) – the IT band. (:

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=3292986&song=Leave+Out+All+The+Rest

CONFUSION SONGS

–      crawl (Chris Brown)

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=7868762&song=Crawl

–     coming clean (Green Day) – here is more GD, believe me, this is not the last one..

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=8412827&song=Coming+Clean

–   how soon is now? (The Smiths)  

 http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=2165253&song=How+Soon+Is+Now

SADNESS SONGS  (when somebody dies/leaves you)

–     when you’re gone (Avril Lavigne) – the lyrics are great, but the singing disturbs a bit

http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=7671862&song=When+You%27re+Gone

–     daddy’s little girl (Frankie J)- this song is one of the best I’ve ever heard

couldn’t find a place to download it, but you can watch it right there (that song is really priceless, amazing)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y5aTwvWEQD8&feature=player_embedded

–     Slipped away (Avril Lavigne)- again, the lyrics is the reason why this song is here

–     the last song (Elthon John)

–     tears in heaven (Eric Clapton)

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if you have any questions, suggestions or anything else write in a comment section or write me heywhatsupitsjenn@inbox.lv

“I realize I’m in one of those stages where I’m mad at the world…It’s like I’m daring the world to push me off a cliff…just to see if I can fly.”

I feel like I am finally coming to my senses. They always try to make it to look like I’m the bad one, the one who doesn’t understand, doesn’t care. And I used to believe it, cause I just didn’t know who I am, but now I do, now I know that I was always wrong in a right way. Cause, actually, I’m the only one that does care, the only one who does understand! Now, isn’t that just silly? It appears that actually everybody was lying to me, to themselves, but now I know, I’m right. So that’s enough I’m not letting anyone to step on my head anymore, I am not letting people to take advantage of me, cause I’m so done with that. Yes, I’m mad, but I will not show that, cause it just doesn’t matter. Yes, I know I’m right, but I won’t tell, cause it’s just easier. Yes, I know that I can’t live like this, but I have to, cause apparently, some people just have to live like that, even though they deserve better. But just wait, cause one day, one day I will help all the people who have to live this way, I’m going to destroy, mentally destroy people who make everybody believe that they are innocent, while they are actually killing others WHO ARE innocent. What’s up with those people? How can they be so false and so evil[ish] and everybody thinks they are great, friendly and amazing? What the hell is happening to the world? We just don’t see clearly anymore. We just don’t. And I know, yes, I am angry at the whole world now, but I like to dare it to kill me, cause it just can’t, I”m way too smart for that. I’m way too mature for that. And soon everybody who is not, will be, cause I’m not just letting the world to destroy itself!

This silence hurts me more than anything you could say

We’ve been here for a while now,

Not talking for days in a row.

I’m ready to hear what you feel,

About all the problems you deal.

This silence is killing me,

letting me wonder how we could be.

I guess the words that are left unsaid,

In a story will be read;

Happilly never after,

feeling’s that do not matter.

You have to say something,

It’s better than leavin’ me with nothing.

We once used to be together,

Now without me you feel better..

How did the feelings change?

What for will you revenge?

I’m feeling you slip away,

Further day by day.

I know you want me to let go,

I love you, that’s why I’ll do so.

Love is feeling that you can’t take from me,

Without me you say you’ll be happier, well you better be.

We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand…and melting like a snowflake. Let us use it before it is too late.

Time… Time is a huge term, but we- people… we divide it in many small pieces- past, present and future.. but who the hell are we to do such thing? Time is one unit… we have only what’s here, everything else is just made up so that we can destroy ourselves with remembering the past and thinking about the future… We never appreciate what we have, cause we remember what we had and dream about what we could have in the future – tell me, why? Cause life is just a game now… At this point, it’s all about surviving. We all are just a little part of Everything, we are one simple atom in the whole process..

Yesterday, today, tommorrow- why? I have today! I want to just be here, isn’t taking one step at a time hard enough?  I wish I had a memory like a hamster- 2 seconds and life goes on.. No hurt feelings, no broken hearts, no problems- just run around in your cage and think.. for whole 2 seconds- doesn’t that sound nice?

Or maybe, just maybe I could get out of life and be a pacer for some time… just sit behind and watch the life around me go on..

Time… time is a catastrophe in the way we have learned to use it – – the bomb counts down, the aging happens – if we had just today, we’d live the life so much better.. but well.. life sucks and then you die.

So this is odd, the painful realization that has all gone wrong… And nobody cares at all…

You know, it’s hard enough when you have no relationship with your father, but when your mother bails on you… I feel like dying inside. I hate my life, I hate my everything. How is this even fair?

Am I some kind of slave? Why does everyone think that my life is so easy. wanna hear my day?

I wake up. I go to school. I study. I come home. I study. you know the whole AP thing is not helping. 

I just didn’t clean the citchen, cause I was so tired, I couldn’t stand- and now… well, I’ll tell you what’s now – When I tryed to take and read the newest magazine , she said: Those are mine.  I can’t touch anything in this house now, and I can’t go anywhere..

My sister does nothing, but annoying me.. on purpose… my dad, well, he just doesn’t give a shit about me, and my mom now doesn’t care either.

why?

Cause I’m the stupid -i don’t know what’ , that does nothing, but eat, yell, eat, yell and get carpooled to school (my mom said that sentence) – well, maybe I should give them a reward?

FUCK YOU ALL. I’m tired with trying to apologize, for  what I’m not even that guilty. I’m sick of crying myself to sleep, cause my life is miserable, I’m fucking done with trying to please anyone- cause I don’t need them, I don’t fucking give a shit anymore…

Is wanting a family that wants you is too much to ask for? What have I done so so wrong, to deserve life like this? why can’t I have something, something to chose from – I don’t have anyone I can relay on. I seriously, have no idea what to do now… I’m just feeling broken inside, I feel that I’m bleeding, and my tears are running down my cheeks to tell me one more time that  I have nothing left.

 

Cause I could go to my grandma’s , but then a new scandal will come, and they live too close to home. I need to get away, I need something, somewhere to go…. I don’t know what to do… all I know is I have no one who cares…….